Major Update!!

I'm BACK!!

Life has been a whirl wind, let me tell you. So so many things good and not so great have happened within the last few months. I'm not sure where to even start. It is a rather long read (sorryyy). But I have missed you guys!! Disclaimer.. this is gonna get deep, so prepare yourself!

To begin, I have truly found myself. When I started this blog, I really did not know what the heck I was doing. I had always wanted something like this to call my own, it was a really impulsive decision. This past month, I was at my weakest point I had ever been in my 18 years of life. I really did not know where I was going, what I was going to do, or how I was going to make it through. I was just not in a good position. If I didn't have my friends and family by my side through it, I really don't think I would have made it. But God has blessed me beyond measure with some of the most genuine people who care so so much about me. I am forever grateful. Even at 2a.m. when I needed someone to talk to, one of them was always there. I would ask God day and night, "why me" so much because I had no idea why everything that could go wrong, went wrong. I prayed harder than I ever had in my entire life, and read scripture every chance I got. What God has planned, is beyond me. I have no idea what tomorrow is going to bring, but I have learned to just trust it and Him. I have gotten so much closer to Him, it really is crazy. I never realized how distant I was from Him. Everyone in your life, whether they stay or come and go, has a purpose/lesson. I don't dwell on what happened, everything happens for a reason. Instead, I see the good out of it.

I can honestly say I have found who I am as a person and in Christ. I have found happiness, in myself and all the wonderful things God brings to me. I don't think I have ever been this happy in my entire life. With that being said, to the one reading this, if you're going through something, it gets better. I promise, life is about to get so much sweeter. What you're going through does not define you, and you CAN make it through. If you don't have a relationship with Jesus, I highly encourage it. Psalm 34:17 says, "The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; He delivers them from all their troubles." I held onto this verse like it was life support. He hears you, I promise, and He's working through your life every step of the way. Just trust Him.

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I have a TON of things coming up. In the next two months, my sweet little Beau turns a whole 2 years old. (it really is so bittersweet, I wish he could stay little forever) I will FINALLY be done with my freshman year at MSU, it has been a long time coming. I gain another year and turn 19! I go to Beale Street Music Festival with my best friend, I am so stoked. Then not long after, I will be driving down to Mobile, AL to board a plane with my papaw to go to Europe!! I have been waiting for my trip there for seems like ages, and it is finally nearly time. I have always dreamed of traveling out of country and exploring what else the world has to offer. So shout out to my awesome papaw for making that possible! My photography hobby has grown, by a lot. I love it. I also just recently got back from Gatlinburg, TN with my one of my besties Rachel, and we had a blast. But that's a whole different blog to come!

If you got this far, you rock. See you soon!

- Jewels :-)